very happy n a tad disappointed
oh well since sch began i've been busier than ever practising...so many things so little time! i need more than 24hrs a day and tons of energy to keep up with the work!
1st week was alittle disastrous coz my morale is down and i couldnt play well at all.. not tt i am not capable of playing, but everything just sux to the core and so i tot of my playing too and i screwed up the whole week... until friday... i went for the combo band audition... prior to that, i was trying to prac and get the whole song on thurs nite and was pushing myself to get it done. fri morning more of it... then at the audition, i was very happy with my performance... i was really contented that it went well and getting in or not wasnt tt crucial to me..i hoped that by getting in the band i can play more music and express myself better coz i can perform way better given some time to analyse the music (that is not throwing the scores on the spot n play chim stuff in less than an hr). this was the best performance since i stepped into this school(minus jamming) coz i was always stressed up with drummers ard and trying to keep up the standard.. and obviously things will only get worse by being stressed... anyhow, i didnt get into the band..michael 3rd quarter guy got in.. i was predicting he might be the one chosen.. but i am disappointed with the reason i hear... the band and david who were at the audition gave their votes to me.. i am really really happy.. but one of the decision makers who wasnt present at the audition think that i am not technical enuff to play the chim stuff. granted, i know my limitations and understand the reason. but i am just so disheartened by the fact that the other decision makers werent even present at the audition. if they were there and still think tt way, then im totally cool with that.
since friday i've been working very hard to practise the compound time stuff and coordinations and independance... i hope by the end of this quarter i can be much more free in expressing my ideas thru drums.. ganbatte ne!
1st week was alittle disastrous coz my morale is down and i couldnt play well at all.. not tt i am not capable of playing, but everything just sux to the core and so i tot of my playing too and i screwed up the whole week... until friday... i went for the combo band audition... prior to that, i was trying to prac and get the whole song on thurs nite and was pushing myself to get it done. fri morning more of it... then at the audition, i was very happy with my performance... i was really contented that it went well and getting in or not wasnt tt crucial to me..i hoped that by getting in the band i can play more music and express myself better coz i can perform way better given some time to analyse the music (that is not throwing the scores on the spot n play chim stuff in less than an hr). this was the best performance since i stepped into this school(minus jamming) coz i was always stressed up with drummers ard and trying to keep up the standard.. and obviously things will only get worse by being stressed... anyhow, i didnt get into the band..michael 3rd quarter guy got in.. i was predicting he might be the one chosen.. but i am disappointed with the reason i hear... the band and david who were at the audition gave their votes to me.. i am really really happy.. but one of the decision makers who wasnt present at the audition think that i am not technical enuff to play the chim stuff. granted, i know my limitations and understand the reason. but i am just so disheartened by the fact that the other decision makers werent even present at the audition. if they were there and still think tt way, then im totally cool with that.
since friday i've been working very hard to practise the compound time stuff and coordinations and independance... i hope by the end of this quarter i can be much more free in expressing my ideas thru drums.. ganbatte ne!
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