farking happy!

oh well, pls dont misunderstood tt im having mood swing.. have been feeling pretty bad from last thurs til tues.. i dont need anymore reminder that i dun have enuff $ to survive for 1 yr and let me concentrate on playing! unless u r donating some $ to me, otherwise i totally appreciate ur moral support n best wishes. i dun need any more crap other than living in another country, cant have proper meals, cant afford to spend $, need to 省吃俭用 but still spend quite some $, need to find housing near sch ASAP, need to prac, need to do well in sch, need to feel confident when i dun really feel it at times. my current enjoyment is to come online at the comfort of home(while im still in this place), surf net, chat w u guys back home, checking wat's happening w u guys. when i move house, i can only do so in school and i duno if can connect coz sch network seems to be down regularly. i have a spoilt battery with me which i need a powerpoint to get mylaptop working. anyways, i dun have much enjoyment over here so give me a break! i go to sch 7 days a week and i practise harder on wkends. i dun need no shit anymore. i need, at the very least, moral support if tt's all u can afford to.

back to the title, today it's contemporary class again. im so darn happy coz mike said tt i sounded like the music from CD player. this is the biggest compliment i ever have in my life thus far n im really happy. jeff said tt im improving every week/getting better approvingly and i think tt's one of the best things someone has ever said to me. mind u, they r professionals in the market n i totally appreciate the precious comments bestowed on me. i've picked up my 心情 today coz i know this is the only thing i can do right now. i screwed up a little bit yesterday in tony's class but it was great.. chris n sho was so encouraging.. i know i didnt do well at the fill-ins coz i was just bashing the sound out of the drums rather than trying to play as sounded in that song. tony was sooooo nice. he came up to me several times n asked if im okay. oh well, this is really touching coming from a teacher.. shall not go into details. but ya i just told him ya im fine.. i forgot to ask love to record my playing today... too bad! i would love to hear how i sound though... mike mentioned some of the weakpts n wat ex to do to make my playing better. the bass player was a sub but i didnt catch his name... too bad steve wasnt ard... my recorder pls come soon... bidded for the CF card le...