Yeah yeah yeah

i know i know i know.... never update this page for soooo long liao... i bet no one's looking here eh..

anyways, here's my indie rock band's website! http://chachi.us

i'll be more active over there as a blogger.. =) and it's my main project in US so you get to see how Chachi grows and develops as a band in its music career!

u can also look for me on facebook! Jennifer Ng! =D

guys are stupid...

and dumb and selfish and stupid(gotta say that again, never enough).

not all guys, but many of them are.

finally a new post

well well... it's long overdue... i havent been keeping up for so long tt i stop bothering to update this blog.. glad it's still around..

im just kinda stressed up... not kinda.. very stressed up but thanks to the layback american ways i've adapted to, im prob not as stressed i would have been..

depressed that im not going to calarts due to $$ issues.. lost my right contact lens earlier this week and using a 5 yr old one which is blurry.. dont feel like calling home to get a new one coz i dont even know if it can get through custom at all. plus shipping is ex..

love issues but it's really not too complicated... prob just need to get through this phase im going through now..

injured my hands (again) and that was the catalyst to my depression.

i think i've had enough my dealing with liking someone in LA now..

i never thought of marrying someone just for the papers and maybe the ppl whom i do like may think that i want to get close to them just to stay here... how naive can tt be... if tt's the case, fark u all in LA. i've had my fair share of california guys and am pretty jaded now. i dont think i want to settle down right now at this moment, so screw u all. it's just a pity that i do not like the guys that do like me for real.

i dont think i ask for alot... the only 1 thing i ask for is chemistry. everything else doesnt matter as much... if there's no chemistry to begin with, it doesnt matter how good-looking, tall, successful, rich you are. I dont care. no one's perfect... if i like someone, i'll accept everything that he is.. just like i did with the last guy i ever loved so much in my entire life so far. everything was pretty cool, it was just the wrong time for a wrong guy. now it's prob the wrong time for the right same guy... but too bad, u had ur chances before and now it;s too late. i do not disagree the fact that there is ever-so such a slim chance of getting back together, but i think that will take alot for it to happen. (he's prob not even reading this n i wish to stay that way)


im just too jaded n tired of all the bullshit im going through now and somehow wish that i can break away from everything and maybe go home to visit everyone. i guess i just need somebody... not just anybody, somebody i can hold on to. 想哭但是哭不出来，蛮难受的...

p/s: i love sigur ros and pink floyd

jenn not in la

ok... tests r finally over n 3rd quarter is over! really sorry didnt update at all.. but rest assured whatever photos i have i'll post all of them up in facebook k... hehe been hanging out w frds alot n partying too... had some major issues w both of my hands but since the long wkend of memorial day my hands have been way better since.. im glad tt they seems to finally well on their way to recovery and pray hard tt things will stay optimistic... lotsa downs n some ups but overall, this quarter ended with a positive note... i didnt prac as much as 2nd quarter due to the darn hands.... in some ways, im glad this has happened... coz the feeling of wanting to play when u cannot play is indescribable..and the fear of playing in class n in front of other ppl(drummers!) just disappear as i was distracted by the pain in my hands.. the emotions of wanting to play the music as best as i can just flows through easily.. however the process of getting my hands n my skills back to shape is so torturous... i hope this phase will pass by real soon n i can pick up where i left off at end of 2nd quarter...

anyway, im now being real bored at the hongkong airport departure area... it's 6am local time, 3pm LA time... been wasting my time trying to find a power plug in here!! i cant find it! god-damn-it (in Love's way of saying it :P) found internet station n here i am, typing away and wasting some time... coZ the stupid airport security didnt allow the use of msn chat and use of facebook/friendster! argh how irritating.. i wana chat w frds online!! well at least check it out who's online.. oh well.. the flight, in my opinion, was just satisfactory... could have been way better.. and SIA totally beat them hands down! i was supposed to be at the window seat but i gave it up for a lady n her 5 yrs old son.. well well, it's ok.. this time, i didnt watch tt many movies..just watched 27 dresses, 48 hrs mystery, discovery channel on storm chasers, played some sudoku! and switching bet movies (watched part of it)

1st thing i noticed when i stepped out of the plane it's the humidity in the air.. haha i forgot how it feels like man.. but my noce will tell me.. hehe sinus pls dun get too bad for the next 2 wks.. it's 26 degree C so it's just the typcial temperature in this part of the world now.. i hope SG it's the same or cooler.. hehe no storm pls.. oh shit! left my umbrella in pasadena! darn... i knew i was gonna forget something.. haha never mind..

it's so annoying now coz the shops r all not open yet so there's really nothing to do except to sleep.. but i dun wana sleep now coz im scared tt i'll miss my flight at 8.55am.. hehe hold on, jen! i will make it through to SG! my plane hasnt even touch down in HK yet so i dun even know where to wait/hang out now.. sian 1/2.. i cant wait to speak singlish!! i think my engrish has since improved coz i think i cant stand the way i speak when i hear the recordings of me playing n speaking... hehe i hope to stay tt way, speaking singlish too! i know tt my pronounciation isnt clear some times but now i think it's way cleaner now.. no american accent.. hehe tt is cool for me..

im just abit disappointed tt i cant be with all my darling frds back in LA right now, at huntington beach, chilling out, doing their own BBQ and surfing n wat-not.. i think this quarter i've been hangin out ALOT that i really get to know everyone better...vice versa i hope coz i cant really see myself from a objective point of view... hehe

i must rem to check out some istanbul cymbals!! i wana buy! but how to fit into the luggage? no idea.. hmm i'll figure it out later..

hopefully i'll stay awake at dom famuralo's clinic later! hehe and must tok to him!! was hangin out at sch for abit the day i left LA and ben told me dom is his teacher b4 he left NY for LAMA.. tt's cool.. hehe must help ben say hi to him.. :P

hope everyone in LA is surviving the super hot weather there now! i bathed b4 i left n i was all sweaty again! didnt have tiume to bathe once more right b4 i take off to aiport.. hmm.. hope my frds wun notice! hahaha cant wait to see how Holland Village has changed, i wana sit in the huge ferris wheel(if i dun have to be on waiting list n i can afford it), hang out at esplanade once again at the harry's bar and by the river toking cok with the backstage guys.. hehe go to sentosa beach!! absolutely! i wana go at least 2 times b4 i leave! in fact, can i go there everyday?? hmm i need company.. very boring to go alone... do some nice tanning, drinkin by the beach!! haha US sux big time coz u cant drink in public coz it's agst the law to do so.. so stupid lo... tt means u cannot drink while walking along the streets or drink booze when u picnic somewhere... how silly is that.. oops im not supposed to say this coz i heard tt US constituition passed some absolutely great law that they can arrest anyone who says something agst the US govt. can u believe it? to think tt those in sg were/are fighting for freedom of speech and this is actually happening in US?? OMG ok i will remain silent from there on..

im currently feeling like a tourist going to SG... keep thinkin to take videos of my neighbourhood, the beautiful Holland V, stunning night view of CBD area ala from F1 racing view(as close as i can), best is i can take great photos from the ferris wheel!, great chilling cafe del mar at sentosa beach(cant even rem which beach is tt bar at..) the most southern tip of asia continent (or somewhere along the line), oh i wana go mount faber! pulau ubin chek jawa!!! maybe someone can teach me to ride a bike in sg.. :P clarke quay/boat quay/st james power station for the great night entertainment where the night never ends til the sun rises... there is just so many things i wana show to my frds in LA about SG! on not to forget the coffeeshops! our definition of coffeeshop is totally different from US term of it.. they must understand the good old coffeeshop n the nice coffee beans they roast themselves.. kaya toast, 2 halfboiled eggs n traditional coffee here i come!

to all the frds who asked me to get something from SG and those i mentioned i'll get something -- i will try my best to fit into my luggage k.. only thing i can assure i will bring back is more clothes n fashion that i think suits me hehe, get my new haircut, do some photoshoot at some studio if i can get good recommendations of studios, perhaps do a namecard with my stage name (let me figure out how to write in words first), try to start promoting my good frds' band to SG(klepto k!)

ok im tired of standing at the booth typing away.. i shall stop here for now but rest assured i will post more about SG! at least holland V... and my good buddies in SG... =D

ciao!

bored

ok i feel like typing... haha no internet access at home now so sibei sian arh...
practising in school.. or rather try to... with lotsa breaks in bet coz of my hands lo... much better now still recovering...at least can prac lo.. better than nothing..
the 1st week is super busy n crazy! gosh i cant imagine how can i survive the remaining 9 weeks and next 3 quarters!! so many things to prac, not enuff time! argh..

we had the welcome party yesterday in sch.. it was awesome! im so gonna miss keiko... boohoo.. and i was dancing like mad with her.. haha frds were telling me i danced alot! haha coz normally i dont tok much or do much... very cool kind of image.. hehe oh welll if i dun party now, im not gonna party for the next 10 wks! so this is the last chance man... =( other than chilling out la.. oh well i didnt take alot of photos this time round coz i was busy dancing.. stay tuned for the photos in facebook!

i love the percussion class! but the stuff r easy for me.. so can be abit sian.. dun really bother that much as long as i can play percussion! Jerry is great! i hope to take private lessons from him as well but i dun have the time at the moment.. his student, pete is way cool too..pete just left lion king the musical after being with them for 3 n half yrs... that is so fun lo! can play perc n drums n hand drums... that is wat i wana do in near future.. i aspire to be like both of them! =D

School's starting once again!

well well, i've been lazy n not updating.. hehe... oh well just to keep the concerned friends updated about my situation... keke

oh well, everything was fine n motivating thru out the past quarter, until i developed pain in my hands at about week 9... it was just left hand, then my right hand, and then both arms, moving up to the entire hands... it was super depressing n i have to get through the tests as well... i started not practising n hanging out w frds etc... that was cool since it was the end of the quarter already.. then during the break, i didnt do much at all n hoping my hands can recover faster... went to do acupuncture n my hands has improved alot since.. still not totally recovered yet but pls pls... faster... =( i alrready feel sooo out of touch with drums now! been listening to alot of music in the break... mainly hiphop n classical... haha i really hope i can regain my playing n farking improve alot to catch up... there's no way i wana quit sch becoz of the stupid hands so everyone pls pray for my hands to recover totally soon so i can jam with frds and musicians n get out of school to play gigs within this quarter...

kelvin came over to meet me last friday before heading down to san diego and we had a great dinner at cheesecake factory... it was a pity we didnt have any cheesecake because we were soo full! hehe we chatted and it was great coz it's been a long time since i speak singlish comfortably and im getting rusty man.. hehe

tama called me! haha he was/is in New York and Chicago with jeremy monteiro.. so cool lo... they flew over to play with james moody... we chatted quite abit too and he told me of a studio with decent rate n a good place to practise... will get details from him next time if i ever hang ard NY n play music.. he's taking some lessons over there too with the great drummers in the world! hehe siao eh..

so yeah. i guess that's about it.. the photos r all in facebook as per normal so head over there to check out wat have i been up to! ;)

very happy n a tad disappointed

oh well since sch began i've been busier than ever practising...so many things so little time! i need more than 24hrs a day and tons of energy to keep up with the work!

1st week was alittle disastrous coz my morale is down and i couldnt play well at all.. not tt i am not capable of playing, but everything just sux to the core and so i tot of my playing too and i screwed up the whole week... until friday... i went for the combo band audition... prior to that, i was trying to prac and get the whole song on thurs nite and was pushing myself to get it done. fri morning more of it... then at the audition, i was very happy with my performance... i was really contented that it went well and getting in or not wasnt tt crucial to me..i hoped that by getting in the band i can play more music and express myself better coz i can perform way better given some time to analyse the music (that is not throwing the scores on the spot n play chim stuff in less than an hr). this was the best performance since i stepped into this school(minus jamming) coz i was always stressed up with drummers ard and trying to keep up the standard.. and obviously things will only get worse by being stressed... anyhow, i didnt get into the band..michael 3rd quarter guy got in.. i was predicting he might be the one chosen.. but i am disappointed with the reason i hear... the band and david who were at the audition gave their votes to me.. i am really really happy.. but one of the decision makers who wasnt present at the audition think that i am not technical enuff to play the chim stuff. granted, i know my limitations and understand the reason. but i am just so disheartened by the fact that the other decision makers werent even present at the audition. if they were there and still think tt way, then im totally cool with that.

since friday i've been working very hard to practise the compound time stuff and coordinations and independance... i hope by the end of this quarter i can be much more free in expressing my ideas thru drums.. ganbatte ne!